Halloween 2013

When I look back on last year around this time of year when girls won't be judged for dressing up like sluts from the underworld, and everybody else can pretend to be what/who ever they like to be and also not be judged, I notice a difference in my self. Last year, I was counting seconds till the Halloween event being held at a then-favorite bar, and I remember making sure I had enough money for some cute costume that I only ended up wearing once. This year though, I felt …nothing. Sure I was happy     to see my dear friends who took time out of their schedule to see me, but it had nothing to do with halloween. Despite  my low spirits, time spent with kindred souls is precious. I enjoyed myself a lot and wish such fun times could stretch on longer. 

But if it weren't just pretend, if I could actually be somebody else even just for a period of time, I would choose to be somebody who knew how to be more optimistic and positive with a less obsessive personality. Also I'd wish for  significantly smaller boobs. 

Gloomy Autumn

The sweltering summer has finally passed, and autumn is here in Japan. I haven't been so faithful with my blogging, but I assure you, nothing much has changed in my day to day schedule or my routines. If anything were of worth to put down on this blog, it would be that I got myself an iPhone 5, and a boyfriend who is as old as the eldest of us strange Matsuokas - a fact that I try to ignore but can't whenever I meet up with Eldest--and that I'm not as crazy about nail art as I used to be a few months earlier. Oh and I go out to drink around a lot less. Oh, and that I want my own set of kids, eventually.

On a side note, I've been hitting a strange low recently. It's not unusual, but it is a depressing, lonely feeling that thickly looms over my head. Thinking about it doesn't help. And blogging  about it certainly  doesn't either! But keeping my mind focused and busy  really does, and trying to blog on my still unfamiliar iPhone seems to be doing the trick! So I've decided to pick up blogging for awhile until my heart settles down a little.

Today is one of those gloomy, wet days where if possible, one would like to just curl up in bed with a book or some good music, sip at something hot and delicious and laze the day away. But most of us aren't millionaires or married to one, so despite gloomy weather, putting bread (beer) on the table is the priority. So that's what I'm doing today.

Really, there's not much more to go on about.

Enjoying some wine at home. Check out my black nail-do! Jell, of course.